If Only.....


If Only, If only.............© Krysta Duncker

[It means don't steal it butt munches -_-....]

After I told you I did you confirmed my fears,
after you told me u didn't I broke into tears.

I want to hug you, to kiss, to hold u you so much,
I want to be the one to have your touch.

I wished and wished that u were near,
but now all I wish is to disappear.

I told you I loved you but my feelings weren't returned,
and now my heart is badly burned.

My heart is now beyond repair,
and all I can do is look and stare.

Stare at the boy I loved with all my heart,
who couldn't help but rip it apart.

He still wants me to be his friend,
and I will be to the very end.

But it pains me to see him, cuts me up like a knife,
I'll remember this feeling for the rest of my life.

I love u, I love u my heart will not let go,
I love u, I love you and now you know.

Some people find their soul mate and are met to be,
some people find nothing and that is me.

I will always dream if only, if only,
but I'm just someone meant to be lonely.

For you I will cry a river, a lake, and an ocean too,
for you there is not a thing I won't do.

Shed not tear for my broken heart,
I loved you from the very start.

I loved you even though I knew I had not a chance,
I loved you even if there was no romance.

I was a fool to love you as I did,
and it was your heart that you hid.

Your sweet words of friendship tempted me so,
and it only made my feelings grow.

I love u, I love u, I played, I toyed,
and in the end my heart was destroyed.

I love u now and I'll love you to the end of time,
and I hope my love for you is not a crime.

And I will always dream if only, if only,
but I'm just someone meant to be lonely.

And if a friend is all I can be,
I'll be your best, just you wait and see.

I plan to fulfill my mission as I have said;
I follow through any path you have lead.

If you can't promise me love, can you promise me this?
If we ever meet can I have a kiss?

Just one kiss from you is all I ask,
I hope that's it's not too much of a task.

So please, please promise me now,
that one day you'll give me that kiss some how.

Give me a kiss, so I won't have to dream if only, if only,
give me a kiss so I'll never be lonely.

Give me a kiss and then walk away,
no matter how much I beg you to stay.

Give me just one hug then rip out my heart,
Then leave me, leave me and make us part.

With out my heart I will lose all emotion,
I'll drink a poison, a deadly potion.

Then all my love for you will finally cease,
and I can go to hell in peace.

Then I will never dream if only, if only,
then I will never again ever be lonely.

The rest of my life I leave to you,
won't you help me make my poem come true?